I need to be still and get my life organized! I feel the call to get too many things in order at once. It’s overwhelming! I’m not sleeping…but getting my girls to sleep is overwhelming at this point so I sacrifice. Too much sacrifice and not enough productivity. I feel like I’m running too fast and can’t get where I need to be. Days without the children are days spent catching up on sleep and not being productive. I need peace…still water peace! Yes Lord I know you’re the answer but honestly I can’t find a way to consistently squeeze you in. Agh that sounds bad but it’s as unveiled as I can get. It’s raw and it’s real! I want you here, I don’t know how to back up and let you lead. I often pray that you will just take the wheel…but you don’t! Maybe it’s because I’m still in the drivers seat?! I get that. But how do I switch over when I’m going 100mpg full speed?! I know you can slow me down. But please don’t do it in a manner that will hurt me. I can’t take another heavy pain. You know I can’t! Our family is still in recovery from 2007!